cihuuyyyy !! XD

wohooo ~ so longg , but i am backk here .
just , hmm , a little bit lazy to writee :|
of coursee , got a lot of things to sharee !!
it's gonna be f.u.n onee :D

i received my mid term report card this morning .
i am not very satisfied with all my marks .
it dropped :(
will have to turn it better in the term test three months later :)
jiayouu xil xil !!! :D
actually , i was so fear that i might not be the first rank in the class .
not that i am kia su .
i just don't want my parents to get this chance , with an excuse that i hate the most , to 'deliever their speech' . dislike it very much .
but luckily , everything is well-being , so do my ears :p

lately , have been busying with vone's and my pre-open OLS's stuff .
so e.x.c.i.t.e.d !! :D
hopee many will buy our things .
$$$ neededd :D :D
a lil bit confused as both of us got no experiences at all .

and finally !!
my parents allowed me join 'porprov' .
damn happy :D the last chance ( for sure ) in joining this kind of competition .
but i just wonder 'can i make it through the selection?' . hope so :D
but very sad , my besties can't join .
it'll not be as fun as those days . but it'll still be fun , i think .
hahahaha :D
what i fear ( again ) are the neglected school subjects :|
because when the competition is held , at the same time , my school will be having tests .
the training time also clashes with my tuition time .
oh gosh :| many obstacles on the journey .
hope it will not be a disappointment :)
and last words about it : BIG THANKS TO DADDY AND MOMMY .
although i know they are worried about my safety , but i promise .
i will take good care of myself :)

today say2 is going back .
again , leaving his lecture behind . haiiks .
but i can't say nothing because his family approved him to do so .
and i have to admit : i m.i.s.s him sooooo :D
i didn't realized it until i really saw him at the court when i was called to gather there , to talk about the training time .

what else ?
hmmp . oyaa . about debate competition .
actually , i was pointed to join in it .
but due to the rules , i was not allowed as i am in the twelve grade already .
so , i just accompanied the juniors to go there .
only one of three made through the selection and as what i had expected , smansa always be the one who took the all the trophies . ckcks .

human is really a weird creature , i mean , myself .
yes , i am .
when i was pointed , i was trying to reject that opportunity .
when i was there , i just knew , what a great experience if i could join in it .
i guess , that's what human always does .
only know what has lost when it is really lost .
understand ? hahaha . if not , it's okay .
i also don't know exactly what i am talking :0

there is going to be a marching tomorrow .
wanna watch !! but i am waiting for my dears confirmation .
haiisk . vone and renny is not going to join us ler .
hmmp . in fact , i was one of the chosens to participate in it , but i pretend that i don't know anything about it . hahaha XD
bad me !! :0

wanna watch personal taste now , as waiting for dear .
but have to do some stuff for the OLS .
wan an :)

(= surprises . gifts . greetings =)

have just had a celebration with my dears :D
feel so great todayy .

never thought that my science class will give me such a surprise , but they did !!
although i know there was a cake , because i could smell the candle's scent . hahaha .
but i really truly appreciate it a lot .
maybe i have mistaken them all this time :(
i am so sorry .
will try to make up what i had done all this time .
although that was just simply my style in doing things .
hope you people forgive me , will you ?

after addition class at school , i went to the shop to help my mom for a while .
just to make note of something .
as i was too enjoyed myself in those things , i was late !
it was about 3 o' yet i told them to gather at my home at 3.40 .
hehehe :p
yaa , here was our activities for today :D

we went to cosmos for sing sing sing at 4 o' , actually it was them . erwin and vian .
hehehe . i was late and those who gathered at my home also late because of me .
i am so sorry :p
when we got there , we caught erwin and vian were singing together wooh !!
usually , erwin doesnt sing . huhu :(
but , hihii :D , as usual , very H.I.G.H !!
although at the very last minutes , i was very sleepy and tired :(
it was then 7 o' when we had finished our sing sang sung .
and dear2 and ko2 had to go for porprov meeting . huuhu :(
so , we waited them at the cafe waiting for them .

ooopz , problem popped out .
actually , we asked wonk to bring her partner to the party also .
just wanna know as we are usually seldom hang out together and hardly saw her boyfriend .
it was also odd in numbers , i thought it would be better in even :)
yet it turned out a cold and awkward situation .
feel so sorry .
they even almost or maybe had had a fight :(
it was supposed to have our dinner at 7 o' but then because of the meeting we got to delay .
wonk has told her boyfriend but it seemed that he didnt want to be the only boy .
but in the end , he came when both dear and ko came back .
after a while , they then chose to leave . feel phaisee . haiiks :(
hope everything goes well :)

really memorable night .
they gave me a star and love proyector , wrapped by a love gift paper .
intended to give me a surprise by showing the light .
but they forgot the battery . hahaah XD
quite blurr yaa . but i loveee them !!
they then made a special request of a birthday song in the cafe .
as it is a sat night , so there are singers . hwahwaa .
everybody looked at me lerr .
very very phaiiseee ahh .
but yeahh , happy and some indescribable feeling :D :D :D
while waiting for the boys , we took a lot of crazy pics .
will upload when i have time :)
after they came , took pics agaiin !! hahaha .
really crazyy pics . but amaziingggggggg !!
laugh till drop !! :D :D :D

still , many things that is unable to describe .
more than great .
more than fabulous .
more than any words that describe best yet it is still not enough to describe !!
anybody understands ? hahaha XD
wanna go to bed liaww . miss my bear . hahaha :D
THAT IS SATURDAY , OCT 16TH 2010 :D

i am seventeenth now ! =D

supposed to be in bed now , but .....
let's see what happened on FRIDAY , OCT 15TH 2010 :D
my birthdayy ! i am 17th now . ciihuuyyyy !!
received a lot of blessings , greetings and some gifts :D
thanks a lot yaa :D

dear promised to have a celebration with me .
of course i was very delighted hearing that !!
but unfortunately , i had a training at school and i had to go because i didn't go last week :(
after it had finished , i immediately rushed home as it was already very late .
mom told me to take a bath first . hahaha . actually she was hiding something from me .
guess what happened next !!

all my dears brought the cake for me to my room !
it was a love shape and it was written 'WE LOVE YOU' .
it was supposed to be without saying :D
surprised me and i was speechless :|
but , at that time , i was still very 'busukk' ee . hahaha XD
went for a bath and dined with say2 after all of them had gone back :D

he borrowed car from his dad and the gifts was inside .
at first , he just gave me a small bottle of stars inside .
but actually , that was only an 'appetizer' .
hahaha . he then took a very big jar and gave it me .
he small one contains 99 stars and the jar contains 999 stars .
really appreciate it ! his handmade . what could i ask for anymore .
so touched , even that is maybe just a small and little and easy thing .
but it was not about that . it is about sincerity . he has all that all this time !
love him so much !!

and another surprise came !
a big bear2 was waiting for me to be carried home . hahaha .
it was bigger then me ! feel so warm whenever hugging it .
it just feels different :)
and tell you a secret !
he forgot to remove the price tag . hahaha .
won't tell you how much it costed .
what can i say is he really spent a lot in all of this !!
hmmp . he even limited his expenses , just spent 1/5 from his pocket money when he started to prepare all of this !! for i believe it is a hard thing for him . i know him the best . hahaha :D

we went to pizza hut .
ate till really really full .
but we didnt finished our orders though .
what a waste ! but really couldnt eat anymore . huhuu .
then went for a spin and went home as it was already late .

i have never ever felt that great before .
and all because of him , i know how blessed i am .
thanks GOD .
he is one of the best gift from YOU in my life .
will cherish him better than anyone else did :D

any wishes for me ? =)

it's my SWEET SEVENTEENTH :D
any wishes forr meee ?!
hahahahahha :D
a wonderful night .
thanks to my family :D to say2 :D to all of my dears :) to all of my friends :) to everyone :)
for the dinners and red packets :) for the gifts and surprises :D for the blessings and greetings :) for the time , even for a minute to greet me HBD :) for everything :D

the beginning of my new new life :D

many dislike me :(

sitting around . got nothing to do .
hmmp . actually , got a lot of things to do but L.A.Z.Y :(
a bad habit that never changes . ckcks .

birthdayy is two days more .
so excited . moreover , it's a sweet seventeenth :)
who will be the first to greet me ?
what will i be doing ?
with whom will i be celebrating it ?
where will i be celebrating it ?
what gift will i be receiving ? - kinda lying myself because i know there will no be any gifts :|
what unforgettable moments will i have ?
of course , i know the answers of some of those questions :)
but when i do nothing , i keep wondering where is the good place , what is nice to be done for that moment .
nobody can help me though .

then i started to reminisce the last two years of my birthday .
two years ago , there was still phine ce .
a year ago , there was jiawen .
now , left only 7 of us .
and it is still a question mark whether vian wonk can join us .
it just become less and less people .
not crowded anymore .
those laughters . those jokes . are vanishing .

life moves on yet how much i wish to stay in these period of time .
next year . next next year .
will they still remember my day ?
cause some have forgotten but i don't blame them .
will there be anyone to be there with me ?
to celebrate with me ?
to greet me happy birthday ?
to give me their wishes ?

i don't know what i am thinking about .
but i am sure about what i am feeling .
many dislike me .
yeahh , i know and i am getting used to it .
perhaps i am just that detestable .
but what can i do about it ?
indeed , i am a person with tons of lack .

i am surrounded by a lot of people .
but somehow , i feel so lonely .
especially when i am at school .
yeahh , again , perhaps or maybe for sure , a lot of people detest me .
that is what i can't deny about .
it doesn't matter . i can still endure .
but sometimes , when i face a lot of pressure at school , there was nobody to help me .
have an indescribable feeling :(

i am an I.M.P.E.R.F.E.C.T one . far far away from the word 'perfect' .
is there anyone willing to accept this imperfect girl as a friend ?

the way you look at me =)

no one ever saw me like you do
all the things that i could add up to
i never knew just what a smile was worth
but your eyes say everything without a single word

cause there's something in the way you look at me
it's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
you make me believe that there's nothing in this world i can't be

i'd never know what you see
but there's something in the way you look at me

if I could freeze the moment in my mind
be the second that you touch your lips to mine
i'd like to stop the clock make time stand still
cause baby this is just the way i always wanna feel

cause there's something in the way you look at me
it's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
you make me believe that there's nothing in this world i can't be
i'd never know what you see
but there's something in the way you look at me

i don't know how or why
i feel different in your eyes
all i know is that it happens everytime

cause there's something in the way you look at me
it's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
you make me believe that there's nothing in this world i can't be
i'd never know what you see
but there's something in the way you look at me

♥ the way you look at me.... ♥

miss my grandmaa a lot !!!

what i feel now is sleepy sleepy and sleepy .
but i try to keep my eyes openn , just because i wanna share a lot !!
it has been a long time since i was here .
hwahwaa . so busy , got no time to write and a lil bit lazy .
hehehe :) :)

well , yesterday was my lunar birthdayy :)
thanks GOD for giving me a chance to live in this world till today , even i will complain about my life sometimes .
thanks for everything that you've always given to me .
they are the best for me , i believe . including my family :D
i was so blessed that i was still able to celebrate with my family around me .
that day , mom who woke up earlier then usual . though she need to pray as it was the 1st day of the month , she still manage to buy some ingredients for steamboat ( my request ) :D
dad who also woke up early , because he had to tend the shop as mom went to the market .
thanks a lot , dad and mom !
thanks to my sists and friends , who greeted me and gave me their best wishes .
also res packets from aunt and grandma :D :D
thanks for the midnight call , dear . quite surprised :)
LOVE YOU ALL :D
that dayy , i did my best to serve whole family as i could .
afraid that i can't do that again .
have a thinking that it might be the last time i had this kind of birthday celebration .
next year , maybee i will be celebrating it myself .
sob.sob :(
hopefully not like what i think .

mom and dad are having cold warr ?
haiish . the thing that i hate the most .
mom didn't tell me what happpened . i guessed she just did not want to ruin my mood .
the next day , mom told me .
yet i don't know what to do to help .
just hope everything will be fine soon .

this week , dear is not coming back .
haiish . i guess , he is just busy to look for gift for me .
actually , it is not necessary .
i would prefer to have him come back rather than looking things for me .
and he is going to have a marathon race tomorrow .
wish him luck and jiayouu yaa sayy ! :D
you can do it !!

just now , had some gathering with vian , vone and renny .
we were having dinner and we were too late for tuition .
hwahwaa . luckyly , i didn't get scolded .
hopefully , they didn't either .
it has been a long time since we could sit around together and have that kind of chemistry between us . the ambience was also good .
felt like the gap has gone and everything goes back to normal .
laugh like no manner and talk like speaker .
hahaha . ciihuuyyy !! :D
now , i am having headache about how to celebrate with them .
have no idea and hard to adjust time with one another .
at first , felt like don't want to celebrate , even until now , still a lil bit of me dont want to celebrate it . just don't know why .
hmmp . but that gathering just now changed a lil bit of my mind :)

i think i got to sleep now . for i am going to wake up dear at 5 and hopefully , i can wake up eraly and going to pray at 8 .
will talk much much more next timee yaaa :D
wan an ~

p.s.
everytime when it comes to my birthdayy , i will think about my grandmother .
i wonder how is she doing there now . i hope everything is fine :)
miss you a lot grandmaa !!