sitting around . got nothing to do .
hmmp . actually , got a lot of things to do but L.A.Z.Y :(
a bad habit that never changes . ckcks .
birthdayy is two days more .
so excited . moreover , it's a sweet seventeenth :)
who will be the first to greet me ?
what will i be doing ?
with whom will i be celebrating it ?
where will i be celebrating it ?
what gift will i be receiving ? - kinda lying myself because i know there will no be any gifts :|
what unforgettable moments will i have ?
of course , i know the answers of some of those questions :)
but when i do nothing , i keep wondering where is the good place , what is nice to be done for that moment .
nobody can help me though .
then i started to reminisce the last two years of my birthday .
two years ago , there was still phine ce .
a year ago , there was jiawen .
now , left only 7 of us .
and it is still a question mark whether vian wonk can join us .
it just become less and less people .
not crowded anymore .
those laughters . those jokes . are vanishing .
life moves on yet how much i wish to stay in these period of time .
next year . next next year .
will they still remember my day ?
cause some have forgotten but i don't blame them .
will there be anyone to be there with me ?
to celebrate with me ?
to greet me happy birthday ?
to give me their wishes ?
i don't know what i am thinking about .
but i am sure about what i am feeling .
many dislike me .
yeahh , i know and i am getting used to it .
perhaps i am just that detestable .
but what can i do about it ?
indeed , i am a person with tons of lack .
i am surrounded by a lot of people .
but somehow , i feel so lonely .
especially when i am at school .
yeahh , again , perhaps or maybe for sure , a lot of people detest me .
that is what i can't deny about .
it doesn't matter . i can still endure .
but sometimes , when i face a lot of pressure at school , there was nobody to help me .
have an indescribable feeling :(
i am an I.M.P.E.R.F.E.C.T one . far far away from the word 'perfect' .
is there anyone willing to accept this imperfect girl as a friend ?
hmmp . actually , got a lot of things to do but L.A.Z.Y :(
a bad habit that never changes . ckcks .
birthdayy is two days more .
so excited . moreover , it's a sweet seventeenth :)
who will be the first to greet me ?
what will i be doing ?
with whom will i be celebrating it ?
where will i be celebrating it ?
what gift will i be receiving ? - kinda lying myself because i know there will no be any gifts :|
what unforgettable moments will i have ?
of course , i know the answers of some of those questions :)
but when i do nothing , i keep wondering where is the good place , what is nice to be done for that moment .
nobody can help me though .
then i started to reminisce the last two years of my birthday .
two years ago , there was still phine ce .
a year ago , there was jiawen .
now , left only 7 of us .
and it is still a question mark whether vian wonk can join us .
it just become less and less people .
not crowded anymore .
those laughters . those jokes . are vanishing .
life moves on yet how much i wish to stay in these period of time .
next year . next next year .
will they still remember my day ?
cause some have forgotten but i don't blame them .
will there be anyone to be there with me ?
to celebrate with me ?
to greet me happy birthday ?
to give me their wishes ?
i don't know what i am thinking about .
but i am sure about what i am feeling .
many dislike me .
yeahh , i know and i am getting used to it .
perhaps i am just that detestable .
but what can i do about it ?
indeed , i am a person with tons of lack .
i am surrounded by a lot of people .
but somehow , i feel so lonely .
especially when i am at school .
yeahh , again , perhaps or maybe for sure , a lot of people detest me .
that is what i can't deny about .
it doesn't matter . i can still endure .
but sometimes , when i face a lot of pressure at school , there was nobody to help me .
have an indescribable feeling :(
i am an I.M.P.E.R.F.E.C.T one . far far away from the word 'perfect' .
is there anyone willing to accept this imperfect girl as a friend ?
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