it has been a week since i went back to school .
but still , i can't find back the spirit in studying .
every single day , every each day , at school just make me feel annoyed .
just don't know why .
but the national exam is coming soon .
then a question mark has popped out , thinking whether i will pass or not .
haiiks . really need some efforts .
have to force myself to begin study and study harder .
or i think i will not get started in it until the exam paper is really right in front of me :pp
ganbatte xil !! :D
damn miss him right now .
or should i say that i have been missing him since yesterday ?!!
fiiuh ! his class starts today and that means we will have to stick to the old rules .
keep counting how many hours before we can meet .
and starting from now , it's still about 120 hours to goo !! :(
hmmph . just keep waiting . just keep waiting .
actually i have been thinking about something these lately .
my friends and i keep blaming and complaining about tasks and exams from teachers at school .
but hearing the others from other schools whose teachers gave them even more tasks and exams , i feel ashamed for myself . really :(
and i missed my secondary school life where i could share the same burdens with them all .
studied together . did homework together . gossiped together when there was no teachers .
and many more .
but now , while they are busying with their works , i am busying with my things too .
some unimportant things .
i ought to be like them . not doing useless things like what i have been doing since these past years .
fail to live up to my own and maybe my parents' expectations :(
gradually but surely , i am not up to the mark more and more .
kindaa sad . kindaa disappointed . sobb.sob :( :( :(
kinship , love and friendship .
the most important things in my life .
♥ kinship ♥
things have been well . no more bickering with my dad or mom or sisters .
will try my best to keep this family as harmony , as well as i can .
hope this situation keeps going like this , nothing can be better than this :) :D
adore , dote , love them so muchhhh !! :D
♥ love ♥
finding myself in love with him more and more .
*blushinggg :p
miss you a lot lot lot !!! :D
♥ friendship ♥
feel don't want to talk about it .
can't see it clearly anymore .
everytime when i think it , just feel like wanna cry . heartache .
besties are staying far and farther from me .
am i that detestable ?
can't reach you , your mind , your thought .
the more i try , the more hope i put .
and every time it turns out into a disappointment . it turns out into a rejection .
almost give up on trying .
maybe i really have to do some self-introspection .
maybe the problems lie on me .
i am the one who created unnecesaary troubles ?
i am the one who are not understanding ?
will time patch things up ?
really truly hope so .
although we don't have much time anymore :( :( :(
but still , i can't find back the spirit in studying .
every single day , every each day , at school just make me feel annoyed .
just don't know why .
but the national exam is coming soon .
then a question mark has popped out , thinking whether i will pass or not .
haiiks . really need some efforts .
have to force myself to begin study and study harder .
or i think i will not get started in it until the exam paper is really right in front of me :pp
ganbatte xil !! :D
damn miss him right now .
or should i say that i have been missing him since yesterday ?!!
fiiuh ! his class starts today and that means we will have to stick to the old rules .
keep counting how many hours before we can meet .
and starting from now , it's still about 120 hours to goo !! :(
hmmph . just keep waiting . just keep waiting .
actually i have been thinking about something these lately .
my friends and i keep blaming and complaining about tasks and exams from teachers at school .
but hearing the others from other schools whose teachers gave them even more tasks and exams , i feel ashamed for myself . really :(
and i missed my secondary school life where i could share the same burdens with them all .
studied together . did homework together . gossiped together when there was no teachers .
and many more .
but now , while they are busying with their works , i am busying with my things too .
some unimportant things .
i ought to be like them . not doing useless things like what i have been doing since these past years .
fail to live up to my own and maybe my parents' expectations :(
gradually but surely , i am not up to the mark more and more .
kindaa sad . kindaa disappointed . sobb.sob :( :( :(
kinship , love and friendship .
the most important things in my life .
♥ kinship ♥
things have been well . no more bickering with my dad or mom or sisters .
will try my best to keep this family as harmony , as well as i can .
hope this situation keeps going like this , nothing can be better than this :) :D
adore , dote , love them so muchhhh !! :D
♥ love ♥
finding myself in love with him more and more .
*blushinggg :p
miss you a lot lot lot !!! :D
♥ friendship ♥
feel don't want to talk about it .
can't see it clearly anymore .
everytime when i think it , just feel like wanna cry . heartache .
besties are staying far and farther from me .
am i that detestable ?
can't reach you , your mind , your thought .
the more i try , the more hope i put .
and every time it turns out into a disappointment . it turns out into a rejection .
almost give up on trying .
maybe i really have to do some self-introspection .
maybe the problems lie on me .
i am the one who created unnecesaary troubles ?
i am the one who are not understanding ?
will time patch things up ?
really truly hope so .
although we don't have much time anymore :( :( :(
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