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it has been a long time since i was here last time . hoho .
got no time for blogging and a little bit lazy XD
hahahah .

anywayy , life isn't going on well recently .
got unfinished-tasks , tests and other works .
even got myself into slight fever and headache :((

few days ago , got some problems with DSF .
haiiks . somehow , it isn't like what it used to be anymore and it isn't going to be the same either .
i guess i'll have to get used to it >,<

if they think that with him around then they are unimportant , they are totally wrong .
i just want to maintain a balance between love and friendship .
thought n planned to find our memories back and what i've got in return was ... .
hmmph . i even don't know how to say .
maybe it is just not like what it USED TO BE .
things might change .
things might be different .
but how much i wish our friendship won't .

used to gai-gai together .
used to shop together .
used to hang out together .
used to understand one another feelings .
used to do things together .
used to so close with one another .
without keeping distance between one another .
without any gaps between us .
but now it were only left 'USED TO BE-S' .

feel so sad that she's misunderstood my idea .
how could she think that way ?
sigh*

i was neglected . hiiks .
am i okay , like what i've been saying to others lately ?
no , i am definitely not .
i don't like this kind of feeling . haiish .
i know i am selfish , i am not understanding at all .
but it feels so hard when you want to talk to him while he has no time to hear you .
yeahh , not that he wants it , that's why i am saying that i am selfish :((

i am tired , really . am i taking things too hard ?
i think life still goes on well , even there is no 'me' .
yeahh , so unimportant i am >,<

"the only thing that will never change is change"