are we meant to be ?

so tired , but still feel like wanna writee tons of things :p
also missed to talk about something in my post last night .
hehehe .

last night , when i was buying food for my sisters , i met my ex-senior who studied at smanda at psp .
actually , i forgot her name . but she seemed so surprised to see me .
she still remembers me >> very glad knowing that :)
at the very last time i knew about her , she got a boyfriend who treated her very well .
but last night , the guy that she was holding at was not the one i know .
i have been wondering the reason why .
i know it's none of my business , but it makes me realized something .
"no matter how well , how nice somebody treats you , if you were not meant to be , then it means nothing"
then i think back my own condition . really hope that it won't happen to me .
yeahh , he treats me very well . the best guy i have ever had ♥
things do change , but somehow , i don't want any changes happen in this case
i am absolutely being not realistic now . can i make an exception for this time ?

~ still the same person ~
a simplee smile from her changed my mood immediately
just don't know why . her friendly smile makes me wanna be like her , who just simply smiles and makes others smile too
it has been a hard task for me , as most of people i know sayy that i'm cool .
hahahha
okayy , that's enough xP

holiday is coming ! holiday is coming !
cihuuuuyyy !!
so many plans that my mom and dad had made , but still don't know whether we are going or not .
i am confused by them . hahah :D
but if i am really going for holidayy , it will be about 4 or 5 days .
so lonely my dear will be ( i wonder : will he ? ) . kwakwaa
but definitely i am going to miss him a lot for sure !!

actually that is plan A . if my mom cancels our trip , i shall ask others to have our holidayys together :D
but i am not sure they can .
recently , they seemed not that enthuse about our gatherings .
or is it just my feeling ? haiks .
i often mix up my feeling with reality and often get confused and misunderstand their means :(

that's all for todayy . quite sleepy liaw

p.s.
you may not beside me , but you always stay in my mind and in my heart

a lil bit of mine ..

when a problem is solved , another problem comes .

yeahh , that's life .

we can't change this rule of life .

:)

sorry dearr :(

have just had dinner and gai-gai with him :D
everything seemed alright ..
except last night's incident ..
haiiks ..
feel so sad to remember :(

i can't bear to see him sad .
especially if that was because of me .
regret . remorseful . sad .

how could i intentionally don't pick up his calls while he was full of anxiety that time .
afraid that he would hurt my feelings .
in fact , i was the one who was bad .
i was the one who hurt him .

after picking up the call , i immediately blamed myself for being that bad !!
i should have answered the first call :(
i could feel that he was very anxious , and even very sad .

have forgiven you .
you know i can't stay mad at you for too long :)

yeahh , had a great time just now .
although i am afraid of something now :|
hmmp . hope that everything will be okay .
may GOD bless us always :)

"it doesn't matter where you go . what matters is with whom you spend your time"

范瑋琪 - I Think I Love You

一天过一天
从不确定变成了答案
就像这样
停留在只有你去的方向

每当你出现我身旁
就感觉爱情的重量
我越在意越难衡量 就越放不下
越不去想就越是他

I think I love you 爱就是这样
cause I miss you 喜欢你善良
陪你去逛逛 会偶尔吵架
吵累了说贴心的话

I'm falling for you 爱就是这样
now I need you 想等你放假
要一起分享 oh 今晚的星光
当你说要守护幸福 不打烊

我们越看就越像
不说也能了解对方
画同一张图画 想同一个梦想
幸福是一座大灯塔

少了你世界就照不亮
你一定会再给我力量
其实爱我并不复杂 真心的对话
就能够往幸福出发

爱时常让两个人受伤
爱也总让两个人更坚强 oh yeah
我们不会知道 以后的日子会有多长
在我的世界 都会有你守护肩膀

look at the bright side :D

tiredd after having fun ( was i ? ) a whole day ..
hmmp . it was supposed to be a good dayy ..
but my mood was ruined . hikks .

it was problem between us .
problem which we never intend to solve .
is it because you are tired ? getting bored ?
or is it my fault ?
if yes , i'm so sorry .

heartache-ing mode on :|

yeahh , as there were bad things , there would be also good things .
i might have some problems with him , but my dears cheered me up
we went for photobox and took some crazy pics there :)

and although i have been hanging out since morning till drop , mommie and daddie didn't mention a single word about it :)
at first , i thought that i would be hearing my mom's old song , but i didn't . hahaha XD

well , both good and bad things always happen on us .
remember to look at the bright side .
everything will be okay .
believe in yourself that you can overcome it .
with GOD's help , problem is no longer a problem :)

cheers :D

陈伟联 - 分手的情書

聚要吃苦　散要受苦　就看誰更頑固

我聞到你哭　那種溫度
寒心得像撫摸　愛的墳墓
想到感情歸宿　忘了人情世故
別為仁慈　製造殘酷

眼前無路　心中有數　何必繼續漫步
你該擁有更輕易的幸福
談戀愛不是追逐難度

愛如苗圃命如蠟燭　沿路燒到光禿
是我自私放不下同甘共苦
也念不出分手的情書

愛值得付出　也能退出
來時聚成露珠　去若晨霧
感情美得虛無　就當作身外物
不要讓它　變成包袱

我本來是孤獨的壁虎
你生來是掌上明珠

眼前無路　心中有數　何必繼續漫步
你該擁有更輕易的幸福
別為我粉身碎骨　你看

你的付出該換來更大滿足
如果是這樣　不如不如

p.s. have been listening to this lately .
so touching :|

@$%@??

it has been a long time since i was here last time . hoho .
got no time for blogging and a little bit lazy XD
hahahah .

anywayy , life isn't going on well recently .
got unfinished-tasks , tests and other works .
even got myself into slight fever and headache :((

few days ago , got some problems with DSF .
haiiks . somehow , it isn't like what it used to be anymore and it isn't going to be the same either .
i guess i'll have to get used to it >,<

if they think that with him around then they are unimportant , they are totally wrong .
i just want to maintain a balance between love and friendship .
thought n planned to find our memories back and what i've got in return was ... .
hmmph . i even don't know how to say .
maybe it is just not like what it USED TO BE .
things might change .
things might be different .
but how much i wish our friendship won't .

used to gai-gai together .
used to shop together .
used to hang out together .
used to understand one another feelings .
used to do things together .
used to so close with one another .
without keeping distance between one another .
without any gaps between us .
but now it were only left 'USED TO BE-S' .

feel so sad that she's misunderstood my idea .
how could she think that way ?
sigh*

i was neglected . hiiks .
am i okay , like what i've been saying to others lately ?
no , i am definitely not .
i don't like this kind of feeling . haiish .
i know i am selfish , i am not understanding at all .
but it feels so hard when you want to talk to him while he has no time to hear you .
yeahh , not that he wants it , that's why i am saying that i am selfish :((

i am tired , really . am i taking things too hard ?
i think life still goes on well , even there is no 'me' .
yeahh , so unimportant i am >,<

"the only thing that will never change is change"