finally !! got time to writee .
i bet i have forgotten what had been happening and indeed , i am :p
i'm bushed and almost 'suffocated' by my hectic schedule .
even hardly have time to take a deep breath . haiiks .
but truly speaking , i enjoy it :)
because i am doing things i like :))
( note : excluded going to that school which has become more and more 'not-like' a school from days to days ! )
i like going tuition , whether for physic , maths or english .
there , i can gather with my babes where i can share joy and fun things together :D
i learn things from my teachers whom i respect a lot :)
i like to have basketball training .
even though on wednesday , i'll have to rush to my private tuition .
even though , i'll have to wake up early on sunday morning .
i am just E.N.J.O.Y it :D
some people are weird , to me .
what are they expecting me to do exactly ?
do i always have to put a smile while there is nobody along the corridor or maybe when i am thinking my own matters ?
totally absurd . i am not here to please everybody .
i'll smile , when i think i need to .
whether as a simple greeting to people i know or as a politeness to somebody elder .
i'll laugh , whenever i find that something is funny .
why do people always expect to see a smile on my face ?
i am not smiling , but i am not pulling a long face .
this is what my face since i was born .
is it what i want ?
if only i could choose , in fact , i coudn't .
what do you expect me to answer when somebody asked : ' sil , you never smilee kae haa ? '
hahahahaha . it's killing !
seems that it is my sin for not smiling all the time .
it's just one of facts about me .
for those who understand , thanks a lot!
feeling terribly terrible right now .
just holding my tears and be patient although my heartache is killing me .
i'll just take that as your choice .
i don't care what reasons you had , what excuses you gave .
it's obvious that you have chosen your choice .
and please don't deny , because i know you too well .
i dont expect too much from you .
any sorry won't help and i am lazy to pick a fight .
the more i talk , the more i think , it just hurts me even more .
just enjoy your wet day :(
going to sg tomorrow .
a lil bit afraid because there won't be any adult accompanying my sister and i to go .
both of us are clumsy .
hope nothing goes wrong :)
i am having try out from school from 8 nov till 12 nov .
hmmp . kindaa stress , but nothing to do with it except study harder .
just hope that i'll have time to do so .
or i'll be dead for sure :((
new formula for today : my feeling is equal to the weather outside .
wanna cry , like the raindrops falling .
feeling cold , need him to embrace and hold me in his arms .
nothing could be better than to hide myself in his arms , i think .
yet , he is the person who i dont want to face right now .
although i miss him , a lot !
i guess i'd be better to go to bed now .
in case , i might go crazy if things go on like this .
good night .
and still , thanks to God .
although today is not that pleasant .
i know that there is always something behind what He plans :)
have faith in Him .
whatever happened in your life .
cheers ~~
i bet i have forgotten what had been happening and indeed , i am :p
i'm bushed and almost 'suffocated' by my hectic schedule .
even hardly have time to take a deep breath . haiiks .
but truly speaking , i enjoy it :)
because i am doing things i like :))
( note : excluded going to that school which has become more and more 'not-like' a school from days to days ! )
i like going tuition , whether for physic , maths or english .
there , i can gather with my babes where i can share joy and fun things together :D
i learn things from my teachers whom i respect a lot :)
i like to have basketball training .
even though on wednesday , i'll have to rush to my private tuition .
even though , i'll have to wake up early on sunday morning .
i am just E.N.J.O.Y it :D
some people are weird , to me .
what are they expecting me to do exactly ?
do i always have to put a smile while there is nobody along the corridor or maybe when i am thinking my own matters ?
totally absurd . i am not here to please everybody .
i'll smile , when i think i need to .
whether as a simple greeting to people i know or as a politeness to somebody elder .
i'll laugh , whenever i find that something is funny .
why do people always expect to see a smile on my face ?
i am not smiling , but i am not pulling a long face .
this is what my face since i was born .
is it what i want ?
if only i could choose , in fact , i coudn't .
what do you expect me to answer when somebody asked : ' sil , you never smilee kae haa ? '
hahahahaha . it's killing !
seems that it is my sin for not smiling all the time .
it's just one of facts about me .
for those who understand , thanks a lot!
feeling terribly terrible right now .
just holding my tears and be patient although my heartache is killing me .
i'll just take that as your choice .
i don't care what reasons you had , what excuses you gave .
it's obvious that you have chosen your choice .
and please don't deny , because i know you too well .
i dont expect too much from you .
any sorry won't help and i am lazy to pick a fight .
the more i talk , the more i think , it just hurts me even more .
just enjoy your wet day :(
going to sg tomorrow .
a lil bit afraid because there won't be any adult accompanying my sister and i to go .
both of us are clumsy .
hope nothing goes wrong :)
i am having try out from school from 8 nov till 12 nov .
hmmp . kindaa stress , but nothing to do with it except study harder .
just hope that i'll have time to do so .
or i'll be dead for sure :((
new formula for today : my feeling is equal to the weather outside .
wanna cry , like the raindrops falling .
feeling cold , need him to embrace and hold me in his arms .
nothing could be better than to hide myself in his arms , i think .
yet , he is the person who i dont want to face right now .
although i miss him , a lot !
i guess i'd be better to go to bed now .
in case , i might go crazy if things go on like this .
good night .
and still , thanks to God .
although today is not that pleasant .
i know that there is always something behind what He plans :)
have faith in Him .
whatever happened in your life .
cheers ~~
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